I tried over and over again to get her to see me again, but she didn't want anything to do with a married man and I couldn't blame her. I certainly had some deep feelings for her which we both knew could only go so far.
I even memorized her IM address that I saw on her computer, and found her on there. We became great friends and still are this day. But there was one time I managed to see her again. It was about 6 months after the first time. She had called me and said she wanted to see a house, and at the time I was a Realtor.
I was so excited to see her again! Nothing could have prepared me for what happened next. After the experience with her was over I made a decision to try to make her desire to see me again. I knew she liked to write erotic stories, so I wrote one about our experience together. It was my first story, and rather than rewrite the story, I will post it below in it's original form...
As he finished showing her around the house they both stood in the living room talking about the house. She was asking several questions about the house, and he could tell that she was just stalling, because she wanted to be there longer. She wanted so badly for him to put his arms around her and passionately kiss her. But she knew he was married and did not want to seduce him. So she waited for him to make a move. He was running his eyes up and down her perfectly shaped body, imagining what she felt like, what she smelled like, what she tasted like! His mind was going a million miles a minute, but the right words just never seemed to come out. She was wearing one of those pink mini skirts that flair out at the bottom and a pair of black high heeled boots. She was absolutely stunning! This should have been his first clue that she wanted the same thing he did, but what did he know, he had been married for 10 years. Finally, he said a joke and she leaned into him. He half heartedly put his arm around her and she did not pull back. She just sort of looked at him and smiled, as to say that she liked being in his arms. This was all the invitation he needed. As they gazed into each others eyes, he slowly put his hand on her neck and slid it behind her head. This was the moment they had both been waiting for. His heart was racing at 100 miles an hour. She was so beautiful and he wanted this with everything he had inside of him. He leaned into her and there lips pressed against each other. She could feel the desire in his lips, as he quickly moved them down her face and onto her neck. The combination of his breath, lips, and mouth as he devoured her neck was sending shock waves down her body. She wanted so bad for those lips to travel all over her body. He could feel her desire in her hips as she pressed them against his body, and she could feel his desire for her too!
As he was making his way across her ear, caught his neck with her mouth. Now she was sending waves of pleasure down his body. She was feeling his body with her hands, working her way down his big chest and rock hard abs. He was doing the same, but he had to stop at her breasts and take his time feeling every part of them. As he felt her nipple in his hand he had to get is mouth around it. He had to feel it in his mouth and he wanted so badly to fill her with so much pleasure that she would never want to leave. He could feel her breathing getting heavier as he pressed his lips against her nipple. He continued to lick, suck and nibble on her breast, encouraged by her deap breaths. She stopped him and pointed to the big window that had no covering and said, "Are you sure this is the best place to be doing this?" She led him into another room that only had one small window.
This time she pushed him against the wall and began to unbutton his shirt. When it was totally open she worked her way down his body with her lips and tongue, teasing him with every movement of her mouth, as she pulled open his belt and slowly reached into his pants. Now she reached into his boxers and pulled out his cock. As soon as her hands touched him, a jolt of pleasure ran through his body and he took in a deep breath, slowly exhaling. She stroked it with her hand and devoured his hips and thighs with her mouth. He wanted so badly to feel those lips wrapped around his now throbbing cock. She could see his desire in his eyes as she looked up at him, and she wanted to be the one to fulfill those desires! When she finally wrapped her lips around him his body went numb. She could feel his legs tighten as she worked her lips up and down. All he could think about was how incredible she was. Never before had he been kissed this good! She continued for what seemed like forever. He was constantly fighting back the orgasm that his body really wanted, because he never wanted this to end.
She finally stopped and stood up beside him. At this point he was so turned on that he was simply going on instinct. He placed her hands against the wall, kissing the back of her neck gently, and working his way down her back. "Oh Yes!" she gasped as he obviously hit a tender spot with his lips. As he enjoyed her perfectly shaped back with his lips, his hands worked their way up the back of her skirt. He could feel her ass in his hand, and it was every bit as amazing as he imagined it to be. He instantly kicked open her legs, and began to move his fingers across her now wet panties. Teasing her with his fingers. She wanted him to touch her, and be inside of her. He pushed her panties to the side and felt her soft, wet pussy in her hands. It felt so good in his hand! He slowly slid his fingers inside of her, feeling her body tighten up and she let out another gasp.
He dropped to his knees, and took a second to take in the beautiful view. She was perfect in every way. She could see that he was enjoying the view, so she leaned forward and arched her back a little to give him a perfect view of her. He couldn’t take it any more and had to taste her! He worked his way up her inner thigh, as his fingers continued to penetrate her. He wanted to go slow and tease her more, but the desire to feel her in his mouth outweighted his desire to tease her. Before they both knew it he was taking long deep strokes with his tongue. Sometimes fast, Sometimes slow. Now she was starting to moan with every stroke of her tongue. This only intensified his desires, and he again began taking long, slow licks, starting at the front and working his way all the way back to her ass. Teasing it a little with his tongue. Her legs were begining to shake. He did not want to stop. He wanted to make her feel like this all day long, but he also wanted to be inside her.
"I want to feel you inside of me," She said, and that was all the invitation that he needed! Again she arched her back as he pressed his cock against her. The feel of her warm, tight pussy enveloping him almost brought him to orgasm immediately, but he did not want this to end. With every thrust of his hips he went deeper and deeper. They were both in a state of pure exstacy! He placed his hands on her perfect little hips and felt them move back and fourth as they made love. Then he moved his hands up her back, taking in every muscle and curve with his fingers. Finding her sexy neck and shoulders. Then he wrapped his arm around her pressing his body against her. Feeling her body pressed against him and seeing her legs start to shake again made it difficult to contain himself. Not wanting this to end he stopped just on the verge of orgasm. He stopped a second to late as some cum began to spill out onto the floor. He regained his composure and dropped to his knees once more, agressively taking her with his mouth. He did this for a couple of minutes to build the intensity again.
When he felt ready to go again he jumped back to his feet, turned her around and teased her pussy with his cock. Again he penetrated her, this time from the front. The feel of her hips pressed against his was everything he imagined it would be. He grabbed both of her legs with his hands and lifter her body up pressing her against the wall as she wrapped her legs around him. He loved the way her legs felt wrapped around his body! They continued this until his body was sweating. He gently set her legs down and she could feel his wet chest preesed against hers. Now he really sped things up and began animalistically thrusting his cock inside of her! She began to moan a little louder with each push. Her body started to tense up as she said, "I think I’m going to cum!" He could feel her tighten up and the muscles inside her began to pulsate. This caused a shockwave of pleasure to run through him, and he could no longer hold it in. The final release was out of this world! There was a feeling inside of him that he had not felt in a long time. A desire, a hunger, a craving!
As they both stood there, exhausted and completely satisfied, he took her face in his hands and began to gently kiss her. He never wanted to let her go, but they had been there for 2 hours and they both had to get back to work. I told her I was a full service Real Estate Agent, and she agreed that it was a good service that I provided. I just hope she wants to go house hunting again!
Well it didn't work, because while she liked the story, she later told me she was seeing someone and things weren't going well which is why she called me. It was hard to shake her, but it had sparked something inside me that made me finally feel alive again and I needed to feel that again...
Monday, November 2, 2009
Saturday, October 31, 2009
In the Beginning: The Final Chapter
Happy Halloween everybody! I'm excited about seeing the pure joy on the face of my two little doctors tonight as we run from house to house to go trick or treating. I've actually had a great day with them. We pretty much built a fort in the front yard with all of the yard clippings. I'm sure that's what you all came here to read about, but as a proud dad I have to mention it.
Now back to the story:
We had danced around it for so long. It was a beautiful dance full of passion, desire, and intrigue. I had pulled her into me. Our foreheads were pressed against each other, her eyes penetrating deep into mine.
We both knew this was wrong, but we were powerless to stop ourselves. My lips quivered with nervousness and excitement. I could once again smell her and now I wanted to taste her. I had pulled her body into me. As I did her hips thrust in my direction.
That's all the answer I needed. I pressed my lips into hers. Her body just melted into me. Her lips hitting mine were like that first time the sun hits you after a long cold winter in Alaska.
Her mouth opened up to accept me. We continued to dance, but this time it was our tongues. As our tongues were tasting the perfections of our desires, adrenaline was rushing through my body. I felt things I hadn't felt in almost a decade.
My hands were racing across her body. I wanted to feel every inch of her, to memorize the contours of her perfect body. As we continued to kiss, I wanted to tear those jeans off her body!
Something suddenly got into me. I could no longer hold back. My cravings overtook me. I reached down with one arm and swept her off her feet. She was slightly caught off guard and extremely turned on. I could tell by the way she smiled and the way her eyes lifted.
I quickly carried her back into her bedroom. I was feeling a little more confident than I probably should have been. I threw her down on the bed. I wanted to ravage her, and she was giving me all the signals she wanted to be ravaged.
I slowly approached her on the bed. I'm sure she could see the excitement in my face. Both of our hands instantly dropped down to grasp at each others belts. Our lips were now in a competition to see who could be more passionate. My heart was now pounding and my cock throbbing to be inside her.
She got her hands down my pants first and it stopped me in my tracks. There is almost no way I can describe the feel of being that turned on, having it been so long since I had felt that passion, so long since anyone had grasped at me in that way, and then to feel her fingers wrap around my cock was intoxicating.
If all you women knew just how good that felt, you would be trying to reach down our pants more often. ;)
My body shivered with excitement! I tried again to get her pants off, and she wanted something else. She sat up and pushed me back against the bed. Before I really knew what was happening she had me in her mouth.
It was so warm, so wonderful. She was so so good at it. My wife had done it a few times, but was never very good at it. I never realized how good it would feel to have someone who knew what she was doing devouring me with her lips. She wanted to make me squirm and it was working beautifully.
I looked down as her lips feverishly slid up and down my cock. I was fighting with every once within me to keep from cumming right then. After taking it in for a few minutes, I had to feel her pussy on my finger tips. I pulled away and yanked her pants and panties off in one swift motion or at least I tried to, but nothing goes perfectly in the real world.
Looking down, I saw her biting her lip with anticipation. She couldn't wait. She jumped up and finished pulling her pants off. I couldn't wait for her to get back in bed. Instead I jumped up and pressed her back against the wall.
I finally reached down and caressed the lips of her very wet pussy with my fingers. My lips and tongue were now working their way around her nipples. Her body arched back against the wall as I began to massage her clit.
I loved the way her body reacted to everything I did. I fed off of it. It only increased my hunger for more. Before long, I wasn't just rubbing her clit, but was pressing my fingers deep inside her.
I had tasted her lips, tasted her breasts, but I wanted more. My lips worked their way down her body. Her hips were rocking back and fourth. I took her hard ass in my hands from underneath, then I teased her pussy with my tongue. I was lashing it along the edges of her lips. I could hear her whimpering.
I would have teased her longer but I couldn't take it any more myself. I had to feel her pussy on my lips. I had to feel her legs quivering around me.
She stood there with her back against the wall, and me on my knees in front of her. When I took her clit in my mouth, I felt one leg rise and wrap around my shoulder. She tasted even better than I imagined. She began to moan uncontrollably. She was having a hard time holding the weight of her body up with one leg, especially with how week in the knees she was.
Now I had tasted it and I couldn't help but imagine what it would feel like to be inside her. I had to feel the throbbing around my cock. I stood up and pressed her back against the wall again. I was like a kid on Halloween waiting to eat his candy. There was no stopping me now.
Pressing the head of my cock against her lips, I thrust my hips forward and felt like the Berlin wall had just been toppled. A weight had been lifted. 2 months of desires, no years of desires and frustration had taken its toll on me, but all was forgotten.
Both her legs took turns lifting and wrapping around me. My hips were thrusting deep inside of her. It didn't take long before her moans turned to screams. I could feel her pussy tightening around me.
It was much more than I could take. I began to moan too. The louder I moaned the harder she screamed, like we were feeding off each others' energy.
I think she began to have orgasms one after the other. Her pussy was tightening and loosening around me. I was trying my hardest to go deeper and deeper inside her, fighting to penetrate her harder.
In an explosion of pleasure I finally unleashed all of my cum inside her. I could feel her fighting for all of it, still thrusting into me, trying to get my orgasm to last longer and longer.
When she had finally milked the last bit out of me, my body collapsed into her. She took me in her arms, and we just held each others sweat drenched bodies.
"My God that was good!!" I let out as we dropped back on to the bed together. She just giggled, like she knew it was. I always did love her confidence in herself. As I laid there I thought about how I had just experienced one of the most beautiful things in my life...
Now back to the story:
We had danced around it for so long. It was a beautiful dance full of passion, desire, and intrigue. I had pulled her into me. Our foreheads were pressed against each other, her eyes penetrating deep into mine.
We both knew this was wrong, but we were powerless to stop ourselves. My lips quivered with nervousness and excitement. I could once again smell her and now I wanted to taste her. I had pulled her body into me. As I did her hips thrust in my direction.
That's all the answer I needed. I pressed my lips into hers. Her body just melted into me. Her lips hitting mine were like that first time the sun hits you after a long cold winter in Alaska.
Her mouth opened up to accept me. We continued to dance, but this time it was our tongues. As our tongues were tasting the perfections of our desires, adrenaline was rushing through my body. I felt things I hadn't felt in almost a decade.
My hands were racing across her body. I wanted to feel every inch of her, to memorize the contours of her perfect body. As we continued to kiss, I wanted to tear those jeans off her body!
Something suddenly got into me. I could no longer hold back. My cravings overtook me. I reached down with one arm and swept her off her feet. She was slightly caught off guard and extremely turned on. I could tell by the way she smiled and the way her eyes lifted.
I quickly carried her back into her bedroom. I was feeling a little more confident than I probably should have been. I threw her down on the bed. I wanted to ravage her, and she was giving me all the signals she wanted to be ravaged.
I slowly approached her on the bed. I'm sure she could see the excitement in my face. Both of our hands instantly dropped down to grasp at each others belts. Our lips were now in a competition to see who could be more passionate. My heart was now pounding and my cock throbbing to be inside her.
She got her hands down my pants first and it stopped me in my tracks. There is almost no way I can describe the feel of being that turned on, having it been so long since I had felt that passion, so long since anyone had grasped at me in that way, and then to feel her fingers wrap around my cock was intoxicating.
If all you women knew just how good that felt, you would be trying to reach down our pants more often. ;)
My body shivered with excitement! I tried again to get her pants off, and she wanted something else. She sat up and pushed me back against the bed. Before I really knew what was happening she had me in her mouth.
It was so warm, so wonderful. She was so so good at it. My wife had done it a few times, but was never very good at it. I never realized how good it would feel to have someone who knew what she was doing devouring me with her lips. She wanted to make me squirm and it was working beautifully.
I looked down as her lips feverishly slid up and down my cock. I was fighting with every once within me to keep from cumming right then. After taking it in for a few minutes, I had to feel her pussy on my finger tips. I pulled away and yanked her pants and panties off in one swift motion or at least I tried to, but nothing goes perfectly in the real world.
Looking down, I saw her biting her lip with anticipation. She couldn't wait. She jumped up and finished pulling her pants off. I couldn't wait for her to get back in bed. Instead I jumped up and pressed her back against the wall.
I finally reached down and caressed the lips of her very wet pussy with my fingers. My lips and tongue were now working their way around her nipples. Her body arched back against the wall as I began to massage her clit.
I loved the way her body reacted to everything I did. I fed off of it. It only increased my hunger for more. Before long, I wasn't just rubbing her clit, but was pressing my fingers deep inside her.
I had tasted her lips, tasted her breasts, but I wanted more. My lips worked their way down her body. Her hips were rocking back and fourth. I took her hard ass in my hands from underneath, then I teased her pussy with my tongue. I was lashing it along the edges of her lips. I could hear her whimpering.
I would have teased her longer but I couldn't take it any more myself. I had to feel her pussy on my lips. I had to feel her legs quivering around me.
She stood there with her back against the wall, and me on my knees in front of her. When I took her clit in my mouth, I felt one leg rise and wrap around my shoulder. She tasted even better than I imagined. She began to moan uncontrollably. She was having a hard time holding the weight of her body up with one leg, especially with how week in the knees she was.
Now I had tasted it and I couldn't help but imagine what it would feel like to be inside her. I had to feel the throbbing around my cock. I stood up and pressed her back against the wall again. I was like a kid on Halloween waiting to eat his candy. There was no stopping me now.
Pressing the head of my cock against her lips, I thrust my hips forward and felt like the Berlin wall had just been toppled. A weight had been lifted. 2 months of desires, no years of desires and frustration had taken its toll on me, but all was forgotten.
Both her legs took turns lifting and wrapping around me. My hips were thrusting deep inside of her. It didn't take long before her moans turned to screams. I could feel her pussy tightening around me.
It was much more than I could take. I began to moan too. The louder I moaned the harder she screamed, like we were feeding off each others' energy.
I think she began to have orgasms one after the other. Her pussy was tightening and loosening around me. I was trying my hardest to go deeper and deeper inside her, fighting to penetrate her harder.
In an explosion of pleasure I finally unleashed all of my cum inside her. I could feel her fighting for all of it, still thrusting into me, trying to get my orgasm to last longer and longer.
When she had finally milked the last bit out of me, my body collapsed into her. She took me in her arms, and we just held each others sweat drenched bodies.
"My God that was good!!" I let out as we dropped back on to the bed together. She just giggled, like she knew it was. I always did love her confidence in herself. As I laid there I thought about how I had just experienced one of the most beautiful things in my life...
Saturday, October 24, 2009
In the Beginning Chapter 3
You may be wondering why I keep giving you little pieces of the story day by day. While I do love to tease, the truth is with two little boys that love their daddy it's hard to find the time to write, but it has been nice to revisit such a beautiful time in my life. Of course it also only increases that desire within me for more experiences like it. OK, enough of the boring psychobabble I'm doing in my head, back to the story...
The skin on her arm felt so soft, so real. But what felt even more amazing was the way her body melted into me as soon as my lips grazed against her neck. I'm pretty sure there were goosebumps all over my body. My heart was racing, my adrenaline pumping through my veins. There was a part of me that had been dead for years, which suddenly awoke, and I was once again living.
My lips went from grazing the skin on her neck to opening up to devour as much of it as I could. Perhaps I was a little to eager for the moment, but who could have blamed me?
Her face turned toward me and her body was writhing a little with excitement. My kisses began trailing around her beautiful face, on a crash course with her lips.
Suddenly, she pulled back from me. Not wanting to do something she didn't want to, I stopped as well. She said the last words I ever wanted to hear at the moment, "We shouldn't do this. You can't do this. You're married."
While I was glad she had a conscience, I'm pretty sure you all know the last thing I wanted to do was stop. But I told her she was right, told her we probably shouldn't. The truth was, she was right. We really shouldn't have, but I'm pretty sure I was way beyond the point where i had the ability to stop myself.
We slowly worked our way out of the office and back into the hallway. I respected her decision. We talked in the doorway for a little while, both of us trying to shake the desires inside us.
As we talked, I reached down, taking her hand in mine. We continued to talk as if nothing was happening, but I couldn't stop looking into her beautiful eyes and feeling her hand grasping mine. What is it about the simple act of holding someones hand that can bring about such passion?
Again, we decided this was wrong, but our words were not saying anything close to what our bodies were saying. I could feel more passion in her hand than I had seen in the entire body of my wife for years.
We decided it would be best if I left. By we, I mean she, and I hesitantly agreed. I hugged her and said goodbye. But when I did, I couldn't let go. I held her there in my arms, wanting so badly to keep her there for a long time.
As I slowly pulled away, our faces met. We sat there with our heads together, our lips so close I could practically taste her lipstick. She kept talking and I just kept nodding my head, my arms still around her. My lips were trembling. My legs were probably shaking.
I pulled her body into me, and she was powerless to stop me. This woman with the dominatrix fantasies had fallen into my spell and was putty in my arms. It's not as if I would have been able to stop her either, but none the less she was mine for the taking, and take her I did!!
The skin on her arm felt so soft, so real. But what felt even more amazing was the way her body melted into me as soon as my lips grazed against her neck. I'm pretty sure there were goosebumps all over my body. My heart was racing, my adrenaline pumping through my veins. There was a part of me that had been dead for years, which suddenly awoke, and I was once again living.
My lips went from grazing the skin on her neck to opening up to devour as much of it as I could. Perhaps I was a little to eager for the moment, but who could have blamed me?
Her face turned toward me and her body was writhing a little with excitement. My kisses began trailing around her beautiful face, on a crash course with her lips.
Suddenly, she pulled back from me. Not wanting to do something she didn't want to, I stopped as well. She said the last words I ever wanted to hear at the moment, "We shouldn't do this. You can't do this. You're married."
While I was glad she had a conscience, I'm pretty sure you all know the last thing I wanted to do was stop. But I told her she was right, told her we probably shouldn't. The truth was, she was right. We really shouldn't have, but I'm pretty sure I was way beyond the point where i had the ability to stop myself.
We slowly worked our way out of the office and back into the hallway. I respected her decision. We talked in the doorway for a little while, both of us trying to shake the desires inside us.
As we talked, I reached down, taking her hand in mine. We continued to talk as if nothing was happening, but I couldn't stop looking into her beautiful eyes and feeling her hand grasping mine. What is it about the simple act of holding someones hand that can bring about such passion?
Again, we decided this was wrong, but our words were not saying anything close to what our bodies were saying. I could feel more passion in her hand than I had seen in the entire body of my wife for years.
We decided it would be best if I left. By we, I mean she, and I hesitantly agreed. I hugged her and said goodbye. But when I did, I couldn't let go. I held her there in my arms, wanting so badly to keep her there for a long time.
As I slowly pulled away, our faces met. We sat there with our heads together, our lips so close I could practically taste her lipstick. She kept talking and I just kept nodding my head, my arms still around her. My lips were trembling. My legs were probably shaking.
I pulled her body into me, and she was powerless to stop me. This woman with the dominatrix fantasies had fallen into my spell and was putty in my arms. It's not as if I would have been able to stop her either, but none the less she was mine for the taking, and take her I did!!
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
In the Beginning Chapter 2
For all you women out there that aren't sure if that guy would be interested in a fling with you, read this chapter! Pay close attention to everything this girl did to make it known without making it known that she was definitely interested in more than just talking. Even an idiot like I was at the time finally picked up on the signals. So with that being said, let me get right back into the story...
I'm not sure if she noticed how big the smile was on my face. If she did, then she didn't show it. The sound of her voice as she said hello, the sweet smell of her body, a look into her beautiful eyes, and I just wanted to take her right there and then.
This time I asked her to show me around her house, which was trashed, but I didn't care. She was the typical artist type. She could take a beautiful picture, but she had junk piled up all around the house.
I couldn't help but get excited when she showed me her bedroom, which had handcuffs hanging from a bedpost, a blindfold and feathers on the nightstand, and erotic novels lined across her bookshelf.
I just had to ask, and the conversation that ensued was even more intriguing than any we had in the past. She told me of her fascination with dominatrix fantasies. She told me how much she enjoyed watching porn. Then she told me how she loved to write erotic novels.
Being married to quite possibly the most private person in the bedroom on the planet, who thought anything other than the missionary position was ungodly, made me really appreciate someone who was so open and honest about her thoughts and desires. She had no qualms about who she was and what she liked, and I liked every second of it!
At this point any idiot would have thrown her on the bed and torn her clothes off, but I was still too inexperienced to see the blatantly obvious signs. I did, however, have a desire that had grown to an immeasurable size. So I gathered up the courage to ask if I could read one of her stories.
She was hesitant at first, but then she took my hand and walked me into her office. Her and I shared a chair in front of her computer. She found the file on a recent story she was working on.
As she was searching for the file, I was resorting to middle school tactics for how to pick up a girl. My arm worked it's way around her. (I played it off more as a necessity to keep myself from falling off the chair)
She read the story allowed to me. My body temperature rose quickly with every word that rolled off her tongue. She went on and on about a couple who was doing everything I wished I was doing with her. As she spoke about the desires they had for each other I couldn't help but picture the two of us together doing those same things.
I was trying hard not to breathe too heavily, but I'm sure she could tell I was getting heated. I was leaning more into her body. (I was of course having a hard time reading the words on the screen, so I had to look closer)
I'm really not sure when or how it happened, but at some point I noticed my hand was beginning to pet her arm. When she looked over at my hand, my heart was pounding, had I misread all her actions? She didn't instantly stop me. The feel of her smooth skin against my fingertips was incredible, but not near as incredible as what was about to happen next...
I'm not sure if she noticed how big the smile was on my face. If she did, then she didn't show it. The sound of her voice as she said hello, the sweet smell of her body, a look into her beautiful eyes, and I just wanted to take her right there and then.
This time I asked her to show me around her house, which was trashed, but I didn't care. She was the typical artist type. She could take a beautiful picture, but she had junk piled up all around the house.
I couldn't help but get excited when she showed me her bedroom, which had handcuffs hanging from a bedpost, a blindfold and feathers on the nightstand, and erotic novels lined across her bookshelf.
I just had to ask, and the conversation that ensued was even more intriguing than any we had in the past. She told me of her fascination with dominatrix fantasies. She told me how much she enjoyed watching porn. Then she told me how she loved to write erotic novels.
Being married to quite possibly the most private person in the bedroom on the planet, who thought anything other than the missionary position was ungodly, made me really appreciate someone who was so open and honest about her thoughts and desires. She had no qualms about who she was and what she liked, and I liked every second of it!
At this point any idiot would have thrown her on the bed and torn her clothes off, but I was still too inexperienced to see the blatantly obvious signs. I did, however, have a desire that had grown to an immeasurable size. So I gathered up the courage to ask if I could read one of her stories.
She was hesitant at first, but then she took my hand and walked me into her office. Her and I shared a chair in front of her computer. She found the file on a recent story she was working on.
As she was searching for the file, I was resorting to middle school tactics for how to pick up a girl. My arm worked it's way around her. (I played it off more as a necessity to keep myself from falling off the chair)
She read the story allowed to me. My body temperature rose quickly with every word that rolled off her tongue. She went on and on about a couple who was doing everything I wished I was doing with her. As she spoke about the desires they had for each other I couldn't help but picture the two of us together doing those same things.
I was trying hard not to breathe too heavily, but I'm sure she could tell I was getting heated. I was leaning more into her body. (I was of course having a hard time reading the words on the screen, so I had to look closer)
I'm really not sure when or how it happened, but at some point I noticed my hand was beginning to pet her arm. When she looked over at my hand, my heart was pounding, had I misread all her actions? She didn't instantly stop me. The feel of her smooth skin against my fingertips was incredible, but not near as incredible as what was about to happen next...
Sunday, October 18, 2009
In The Beginning Chapter 1
I'd love to start my blog as an introduction. I'd love to let you all get to know who I am and how I got here, but let's face it, that's not what most of you came here to read. You want the good stuff. You want the sex, lies, and rock and roll. OK, maybe you didn't come here for rock and roll, but you certainly didn't come here for a psychological analysis of what makes a man do something like this, as if I even have such answers. Since I've already bored you for far too long I'll save those conversations for a later date, and get right into the one I'll always remember the most, my first...
The smell of vanilla and lavender somehow combined with her skin to make an intoxicating blend that had captured me. I stood behind her as she shot picture after picture. I was pretending to look at the 2.5 inch screen behind the camera and she was pretending she needed to test out this lens a few more times.
It was a dance we had played together since the first day we had met at the fourth of July party two months earlier. When we met, we had sat down on a rock by the River and had a beautiful conversation about life, photography, and all things beautiful. It was one of those conversations you didn't want to end, because you're almost as interested in the conversation as you are in the beautiful girl sitting next to you.
Yes, I did say almost. I like to think of myself as a good guy. I care about a woman's heart and soul, but no matter how many ways you slice it, I'm still a man. When a beautiful girl is sitting next to me, no matter how intriguing the conversation is, my mind is definitely on the way her legs look in that skirt. Then my mind wanders to how they would feel wrapped around my body.
Even two years later, I can remember her smile and the way her hair glowed in the sunlight. I couldn't shake her from my head for the next couple of weeks. No matter what I was doing at the time, all i wanted was to be right back on that rock again with her.
Being in the situation I was in, I had thought about such things in the past, but the longing had never stuck with me the way it did this time. She had cast a spell on me that only she could break.
One day I was tired of thinking and had decided it was time to do something. I pulled her name up on yahoo people search and found her phone number. I was so nervous as I dialed the number. I hadn't courted a woman since the 10th grade, and even then I wasn't very good at it.
I'm only calling her to see if she might be interested in my telephoto lens I haven't used in years. At least that's what I told myself to get my fingers to stop shaking. It was so easy to rationalize. I wasn't going to try to sleep with her. I just wanted to spend some time with her. I just wanted to feel alive again the way I did as I sat there on that rock, the way my chest tightened up, and the way the blood rushed through my body.
A simple conversation later I had set up for me to bring the lens to her house the next day, and that's pretty much what has led up to the moment I find myself in now, with her sweet smell drawing me closer and closer. I stared down at her neck as she took photo after photo. I was sure she could feel me breathing on her neck from behind. I was standing so close I could feel her body heat, but not quite close enough to touch her.
I was teasing myself, and teasing her in the process. She was pretending not to notice how close I had gotten. She wanted me closer the same way I wanted to be closer. The hunter within me saw her neck and wanted to devour it. I could feel the sexual tension, and I could tell she was feeling it too, but the rational person inside me kept telling me how off my radar just might be. After all, I hadn't really tested my radar on anybody but my wife in about 12 years, and I was almost always wrong when it came to her.
In my fear, the moment had passed. I was too paralyzed still to act on my desires. I kept hearing this little voice in my head. She knows your wife. If you're wrong about this, then you could lose everything. It was just too risky.
I stayed at her house for over an hour. We were taking pictures, and talking the whole time. Never a dull moment. She intrigued me to no end. Although I'll admit, I have no recollection of what we talked about. I just remember thinking, it's not every day you meet a woman who is both beautiful and deep.
As I drove away I was kciking myself for not making a move, and somehow at the same time patting myself on the back for avoiding temptation. The truth was, I hadn't avoided anything, I was just too chicken to act on my desires. Had she made a move, I would have been helpless to stop her.
Instead, I put myself back into this Purgatory. I was in this waiting place. Heaven was just on the horizon, and yet I had to wait until I was ready. It didn't take long to be ready. If I thought it was tough to shake her from my head before, now it was truly impossible.
Lucky for me, I still had a reason to see her again. I had left my lens with her to try out. I wanted to call her again the next day, but I played it cool. I agonized for a week, as I laid in bed every night imagining what it would be like to feel her body pressed against mine. I imagined what she would taste like, how good it would be to feel her flesh against my tongue.
After what seemed like a month, I gathered up the nerve once more, picked up the phone, and began dialing the numbers once more. My fingers were trembling a little less this time. The smile on my face was undeniable, as we talked about getting together again that afternoon to talk about the lens.
There I was, at her house again, and when she came to answer the door butterflies began fluttering around in my stomach that had been dormant for nearly a decade. All I wanted to do was grab her and kiss her. But there was still one more song to be played during this dance....
The smell of vanilla and lavender somehow combined with her skin to make an intoxicating blend that had captured me. I stood behind her as she shot picture after picture. I was pretending to look at the 2.5 inch screen behind the camera and she was pretending she needed to test out this lens a few more times.
It was a dance we had played together since the first day we had met at the fourth of July party two months earlier. When we met, we had sat down on a rock by the River and had a beautiful conversation about life, photography, and all things beautiful. It was one of those conversations you didn't want to end, because you're almost as interested in the conversation as you are in the beautiful girl sitting next to you.
Yes, I did say almost. I like to think of myself as a good guy. I care about a woman's heart and soul, but no matter how many ways you slice it, I'm still a man. When a beautiful girl is sitting next to me, no matter how intriguing the conversation is, my mind is definitely on the way her legs look in that skirt. Then my mind wanders to how they would feel wrapped around my body.
Even two years later, I can remember her smile and the way her hair glowed in the sunlight. I couldn't shake her from my head for the next couple of weeks. No matter what I was doing at the time, all i wanted was to be right back on that rock again with her.
Being in the situation I was in, I had thought about such things in the past, but the longing had never stuck with me the way it did this time. She had cast a spell on me that only she could break.
One day I was tired of thinking and had decided it was time to do something. I pulled her name up on yahoo people search and found her phone number. I was so nervous as I dialed the number. I hadn't courted a woman since the 10th grade, and even then I wasn't very good at it.
I'm only calling her to see if she might be interested in my telephoto lens I haven't used in years. At least that's what I told myself to get my fingers to stop shaking. It was so easy to rationalize. I wasn't going to try to sleep with her. I just wanted to spend some time with her. I just wanted to feel alive again the way I did as I sat there on that rock, the way my chest tightened up, and the way the blood rushed through my body.
A simple conversation later I had set up for me to bring the lens to her house the next day, and that's pretty much what has led up to the moment I find myself in now, with her sweet smell drawing me closer and closer. I stared down at her neck as she took photo after photo. I was sure she could feel me breathing on her neck from behind. I was standing so close I could feel her body heat, but not quite close enough to touch her.
I was teasing myself, and teasing her in the process. She was pretending not to notice how close I had gotten. She wanted me closer the same way I wanted to be closer. The hunter within me saw her neck and wanted to devour it. I could feel the sexual tension, and I could tell she was feeling it too, but the rational person inside me kept telling me how off my radar just might be. After all, I hadn't really tested my radar on anybody but my wife in about 12 years, and I was almost always wrong when it came to her.
In my fear, the moment had passed. I was too paralyzed still to act on my desires. I kept hearing this little voice in my head. She knows your wife. If you're wrong about this, then you could lose everything. It was just too risky.
I stayed at her house for over an hour. We were taking pictures, and talking the whole time. Never a dull moment. She intrigued me to no end. Although I'll admit, I have no recollection of what we talked about. I just remember thinking, it's not every day you meet a woman who is both beautiful and deep.
As I drove away I was kciking myself for not making a move, and somehow at the same time patting myself on the back for avoiding temptation. The truth was, I hadn't avoided anything, I was just too chicken to act on my desires. Had she made a move, I would have been helpless to stop her.
Instead, I put myself back into this Purgatory. I was in this waiting place. Heaven was just on the horizon, and yet I had to wait until I was ready. It didn't take long to be ready. If I thought it was tough to shake her from my head before, now it was truly impossible.
Lucky for me, I still had a reason to see her again. I had left my lens with her to try out. I wanted to call her again the next day, but I played it cool. I agonized for a week, as I laid in bed every night imagining what it would be like to feel her body pressed against mine. I imagined what she would taste like, how good it would be to feel her flesh against my tongue.
After what seemed like a month, I gathered up the nerve once more, picked up the phone, and began dialing the numbers once more. My fingers were trembling a little less this time. The smile on my face was undeniable, as we talked about getting together again that afternoon to talk about the lens.
There I was, at her house again, and when she came to answer the door butterflies began fluttering around in my stomach that had been dormant for nearly a decade. All I wanted to do was grab her and kiss her. But there was still one more song to be played during this dance....
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